Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Tired of being tired.

I'm tired of being tired.

      I know, how cliche! But in all seriousness if I have to buy a larger size jeans next time I go shopping I might just die. I caught myself thinking last night at the theater that "God I would be sooo much more comfortable in my stretchy pants". After reviewing that thought upon completion I just about had a heart attackThis has GOT to STOP! Stretchy pants?!!! In PUBLIC?! GAH! This coming from the girl who might be fat but doesn't own sweatpants because they're the gateway clothes to "more fat".

       So I'm starting WW again after using the online version to lose about 25 lbs then gaining it all back. The last month of the previous spring semester I told myself I was too stressed with classes ending to be worrying about what I ate, then that just sort of kept going through the summer. I thought if I just didn't look at the scale and didn't think about it maybe it would all just work itself out. Unfortunately that "working its self out" worked its way to gaining about 30 lbs.
          Now I'm back to where I started +2 lbs and wish I hadn't been so keen on giving myself an excuse to quit and ignoring it long enough to really see all my hard work go to nothing on the scale.

       This is me about 40ish lbs lighter than I am today with no make up straight from a work out. I've never had a 'goal me' picture but I really like this one. Yeah, that was about 4 yrs ago, but its a start.


I know its cliche but I'm starting to really see that you won't be your happiest in life if you let yourself settle for less. I don't give up easily, a side effect of a stubborn personality I guess. It might be hard but I'll get this eventually and it will so be worth it.